Monday, July 23, 2012

Struggling with Food and Depression

At least I didn't gain this week.

I'm determined to get "back in the game" and eat clean. This means staying within my calorie range. I didn't track my food over the weekend and certainly overate. Nothing horrible, but enough that I didn't lose anything.

I finally found a good blog by someone who has lost a lot of weight by eating healthy and exercising. It's The Anti-Jared. I like that he shares his emotional journey and I'm going to try to do the same. He's lost 200 pounds so he's a success story for inspiration both for weight loss and to be a better blogger by sharing more of what is going on in my life.

I hurt so much right now. My husband is fighting depression. Add that to my on-going depression and it's like living in a constant fog of pain. I feel worthless. He feels worthless. And we feed on each other's misery. I don't know how to get out of this. Anti-depressants don't work for either of us. They simply don't work for me and they give him horrible side effects. We've both tried numerous brands. We've both starting therapy. I can only hope it will help.

I need to lose weight so I can go back to work so we can get out of this financial hole. It's an absolute misery. I'm on disability and he's hardly making anything. We have just enough to keep a roof over our heads and to feed ourselves. He needs glasses. We both need dental work. The house needs major repairs as does his truck. We haven't been on a vacation in over a decade. We can't get assistance because he makes too much. But he doesn't make enough for us to get the things we need.

Is it any wonder we're depressed?


  1. Aw, Morph. I hope things get better soon. At least you've been making serious progress on your weight, so that you know you're heading in the right direction. Even with the little blips, the long-term weight trend is clear.

    For glasses, what prescription does your husband need? I wouldn't be surprised if there's someone out there with an old pair that's exactly what he wants.


  2. Well, I hope you feel happier soon! I think losing weight is a fabulous way to cheer up, and you seem to be doing such a good job at it! Just keep it up, and I bet the happiness will follow.

  3. You are in the situation I feel so sad for, the "working poor" that fall through the assistance cracks. :( Keep trying morphy and remember how much better things can be when these situations change and YOU can do it! I'm pulling for you! :)


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