Monday, February 18, 2013

Non-Scale Victories

Went to my doctor for a med check and my blood pressure was 90/60. Whoops. She said we are over-medicating my blood pressure and because I've lost so much weight, we need to reduce my blood pressure medications. Yay!

She also said that I've lost more weight than any other person she's known without weight loss surgery. The next person had lost 100 pounds. I've lost near twice that. Another yay!

I'm working on a current set of Before and After pics. I thought I had them ready but #1 Blogger is doing funky things like turning them on their side and #2 the before pics were taken at a different time of day and the tones are different. I don't like it so I want a new set taken. It might be the weekend before my husband can do so while the light is right since he works. I'm not seeing a lot of difference except in my face between the 555 pound pics and the 488 pound pics. Maybe you'll be able to when I get them posted.

Monday, February 4, 2013

I Got a Do Over

Okay, it took a few weeks but I'm back to where I was. I gained twelve pounds after that binge and I've lost it again. I challenged myself to 30 days of under 2500 calories and posted my challenge to my friends on LibraryThing. Every day I post a "Day #" image for fun. I'm up to Day 8 and doing fine.

I'm still struggling with constant high levels of anxiety. Anxiety is what got me into this mess in the first place. I ate to self-medicate the anxiety. Now that I'm not eating, I have to sit with this.  Medications don't work for me. Believe me, over the last twenty plus years, I've tried them all. Now that we are dealing with my husband's on-going health issues and job troubles, it's near constant and unrelenting. I don't even know what to do with myself any more. My stomach hurts and I have a constant sinking feeling. I'm on the verge of tears all the time. I should go get some therapy but we simply can't afford it.

So I can't eat to soothe the anxiety because I have to take this weight off. But I don't know how much longer I can deal with this level of high emotion. If anyone has some ideas, I'd be willing to listen.