Monday, July 18, 2011
It's Been a Bad Week
And it's a bad day. Found out that my husband's hours are being cut on Thursday and it went all down hill from there. Lost control of my eating. Premenstrual. Bad dreams at night. Having thoughts of ending it all because I'm so bloody tired of fighting. Fighting my weight. Fighting with mental illness. Fighting with financial problems. Everything is such an effort and I'm exhausted. I know I'll come out the other side. I always do. But being in this dark place sucks big time. In a few days, I'll have hope and energy again. I just need to get through them without doing anything stupid. So, I'll write here. I'll tell my husband. I'll journal. I'll keep myself busy and stay gentle with myself. My eating is back on track and I'll try to keep it that way. Just for today. I can make it through today.