I was so close to the 100 pound lost mark that I started weighing every day. 574. 574. 573. 574. Then finally 572. Yay! I trumpeted to everyone on SparkPeople, Facebook, etc. And what happens on my "official" weigh in day? I'm up three pounds to 575. A one pound gain since my last weigh in. And I couldn't even tell you why. I've been within my calorie range all but two days of the last nine - one was over by only 100 calories, the other by 400. So it's not like I binged. Not only that, but all the other weeks I've lost four to five pounds, I've had at least one day a week where I was a few hundred calories over.
I got on the scale, off, on, off, on. Then burst into tears. I know all the things to say: water weight, sodium intake, it's just one week, normal fluctuations. But it still hurts. I still feel frustrated. It was an emotional blow. I have feelings of wanting to give up. Like nothing I'm able to do is going to get this weight off. But then I shake my head and keep plodding forward. I'll be especially careful this week and try to stay on the low side of my range, if not a little under.
It just makes me want to cry. I'm so sad.