Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Weigh In - 606, Up 2 Pounds

Well, heck. I guess it's not entirely unexpected. I've had a cold the last few days and I've been doing a little comfort eating. Nothing terrible, mostly chicken ramen, but I've been craving warm and soft foods. I'm also very tired which lessens my ability to make the best food choices. Lastly, my activity has gone from minimal to none. My plan today is to just journal my food. Nothing more, nothing less. No matter what. I've also gotten a load of dishes done which got me on my feet for a few minutes anyway.

One of the hardest things to battle is the sense of hopelessness. There is very little success out there in losing weight and keeping it off, especially when talking about hundreds of pounds to lose. There are a few people who have done it without surgery, and they are mostly men. I'm not sure what that means exactly other than I know I have a very hard road ahead and I simply don't know if I'm up for it.


  1. Can you make some homemade veggie soup, it won't cause the water retention that ramen noodle stuff does! Other warm things, tea or 100 cal hot choclate, or even warm lemonade (w/splenda) is great with a cold.

    I know the feeling of losing hope, it happens to everyone with a real weight problem and has nothing much to do with how many pounds you have to lose. And look you have lost 10% of your starting weight already!

    I re-gained control and started losing again by logging my food every day, no matter how awful!
    That was goal one!

    I read a motivation article at Spark each day. That HELPS. One on nutrition, and one on exercise, which may be just waving our arms around in the arm every few minutes!

    Then I started making better choices and set up a calorie goal. And I started staying within THAT budget.

    You can do this the same way everyone does. One day at a time, then repeat.

    Remember the second bite tastes the same as the first one.

    And every pound lost will make you feel better and more energetic.

  2. Hi Morph. I came across your blog while doing some research, and I want to tell you that reading your thoughts and those of your readers has really made me look at obesity in a different light. I am probably 50 pounds overweight because I eat too much and no longer exercise (getting older and lazier). Since my excess weight is due to laziness and too many calories, I pretty much looked at obese people as I look at myself--lacking in motivation and willpower. After reading your blog, I am astounded at the willpower that you and others who are "morbidly obese" actually have. You are determined to lose weight, and you put yourself right out here in order to help others as well as yourself. You know, until tonight, I never really thought about the emotional complexity that is a partner to the physical complexity of obesity. Your story about how you maintain personal hygiene really touched my heart and started me thinking about how I would cope if I could not take my dog for a walk, fit comfortably in cars, reach my toes, or go up and down the stairs a dozen times a day. I started thinking about how I would feel if I had to face the huge challenge of losing a couple of hundred pounds, and I really began to admire your determination. (I also admire your drawing, your wonderful writing skills, and your amazing reading accomplishments, but those are other issues.) Yesterday's post (Sept. 28) sounded as though you were having a difficult day, but your blog as a whole has convinced me that you will be back in fighting mode very soon.

    I linked to the Sparks page from your blog and looked at Thoms1's photos and comments. I wish the same success for you.

    I started off just wanting to tell you how much I admire your spirit, and I just kept rambling on and on.

    May I bend your ear for just a moment longer and say that as I read your posts, I see a very creative, extremely intelligent, and wonderfully caring lady? I would also like to thank you for making me really THINK about what a very heavy person has to deal with on a daily basis.

    Oh, and please say hi to your hubby. He sounds like a sweetheart.


  3. I know that this is clearly easier said than done, but DO NOT let a sense of hopelessness paralyze you. You can and will lose weight. The seemingly insurmountable WILL be done - incrementally, bit by bit, with each new day.

    I know that it is a radically different scenario, but being transgender I understand on the level of hopelessness, and being trapped in a body without any route to escape that doesn't seem absolutely impossible. The thing is, each new day DOES bring me closer - and, even if it doesn't feel like it right now, in hindsight you'll reflect on this and feel proud that you didn't let it consume you.

    Keep going. Stay motivated. You're going to make this happen. :]


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