What I Eat

I try to shoot for 2000 to 2200 calories per day though if I'm under 2500 I'm happy. At that rate, I tend to lose two pounds per week.

Breakfast: 1 cup of Shredded Wheat or 1 cup of Special K or 1 serving or oatmeal, 1 cup of skim milk, 2 teaspoons of sugar

AM Snack: Ham or turkey sandwich (1 oz.) on whole wheat bread (1 slice) with a "smear" of Miracle Whip, lettuce, and a "nice" cheese (about 1/2 oz.) from the deli. This week it's colby.

Lunch: Meals on Wheels (entree/starch/vegetable/dessert) OR leftovers from double batch cooking (usually soup or a casserole) on the weekend plus applesauce and one store bought cookie OR lunch at senior center (again entree/starch/vegetable/dessert)

PM Snack: Triscuits (6), Laughing Cow Lite (2), fruit (grape, apples or cantaloupe, etc.)

Dinner: Varies widely. Some examples:

- Roast chicken quarter, mashed potatoes, broccoli, 1/2 cup butter pecan ice cream
- Chicken soup, rice crispie bar
- Tuna melt, salad with Thousand Island Light Done Right, 1 snack-sized Mound bar
- Beef Mushroom over egg noodles, Steamfresh pea pods, 1/2 ounce Sno Caps
- 2 hard boiled eggs, 3 sausage, 9 Crispie Crowns, toast, 1 Pecan Sandie
- Baked ziti, broccoli/cauliflower mix, Weight Watchers ice cream treat

Evening: Fla-vor-ice (15 calories)

I drink only water.

Struggling but Back on the Bandwagon

The last month has been pretty horrific as far as weigh gain and binge eating. I regained thirty pounds. Why is it when things are going well that the emotional stuff gets all yucky? My husband has a new job that he's really enjoying. I'm graduating with an Associates in Accounting with high honors (4.0 GPA.) And my eating is awful.

But I'm getting help. I've seen my doctor and she's fast tracking me back into the binge eating disorder program. I have appointments with a therapist and a nutritionist and in the next couple of weeks I should find out when my start date is for group. It meets three hours a week for four months. She also doubled the medication that helps with my binge eating and I'm already feeling the difference.

I'm trying not to get too down on myself. I haven't had a major binge episode in almost a year so I was bound to have one eventually, I guess. I caught it before I regained too much and as fast as I put it on, it shouldn't take me too terribly long to take back off. I lost five of it already in the last week.

This is a process, a journey. A long one. I need to be gentle with myself.