I've time warped back to January 1st and again weigh 560. I suppose I shouldn't feel too badly. I could have continued to binge and put on more weight. I think, as a friend put it, my "don't want to binge" muscle was strengthened by this latest binge as I don't find any value whatsoever in it anymore. Not like I used to. Instead of getting comfort, I got feeling sick to my stomach, less money in my pocket and probably a contribution to my on-going laryngitis (exacerbated by "silent" reflux.)
I've now got nine months instead of twelve to lose that 100 pounds I wanted to. It's still reachable, just a bit more challenging.
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Hi! Thank you for dropping by my blog & commenting. It is encouraging to be reminded that we aren't alone in this journey. Speaking of it being a "journey," I think it is cool that you stopped the binge & realized that you can just get back on the path. Somehow, it takes the pressure off to think that we can get off the path or on the path at any time! Also, btw, I like your list of 101 things. The fact that you crossed so many of them off is inspiring!
ReplyDeleteMy heart goes out to you. You're brave and you need to just keep on going. And yes, it certainly is still reachable, and if your head's in the right place, you can do it. So you're in love with reading? Ever thought about writing? Stories etc? I'm a writer, and I tell you, it fills a void. If I didn't have writing I reckon I'd be a full-on alcoholic/junky right now.
ReplyDeleteHang in there. I just finished a binge myself and gained back almost 20 lbs I fought so hard to lose. The important thing is to look forward and not back and don't beat yourself up over it. Have faith.
ReplyDeleteHugs,
A fellow struggler